thank you

so as mentioned, I have been absent as of late. and as also mentioned in an earlier post, I can only handle so much, or in other words not much, and so my blog has been silent for weeks. it feels strange to get back on the keyboard again. but I am so relieved to be back. I am drawn to the blogging world in a way that is almost frightening, (in an I can't go a solid 24 hours with out checking my Google reader or I get the jitters kind of way.) I love my blog, it holds a key to some seriously repressed self expressions. I have come to realize how important it is to have a place just for myself, but being an extrovert I always want to share what's going on with me, or better yet, my chitlins. I enjoy having a place to stir these creative juices and receive a little pat on the back, even if only by my own hand. I have always enjoyed writing, but never written, now I can write and chronicle my family within the same key strokes. photography is an art I have longed to learn and I have had the chance to play more with the camera and explore new ways of looking at the world. I have also had a keen desire to sew, create fun items for my girls and friends - and being inspired by so many of you I have finally begun stitching on a regular basis. being a better mother, wife, sibling. being more informed and politically minded. being connected to family and friends, providing a platform to at least offer support. broadening my world and enriching my testimony of why we are placed on this earth, all ways I have been inspired on the pages of your blogs.
I have now been long addicted to the blogs of many others who would never think to stop in here, but who have begun to influence my attitudes and style in a very significant way. desires that have long been hidden with in me are becoming realities. passions I had forgotten are now driving me to new ends. I have never considered myself an exciting person, and have longed to be what many of you already are. reading the blogs of so many strangers, I am realizing that we all share a kinship in some way. we each struggle as parents, desire to make sanctuaries for our families, love to create, enjoy sharing what makes us each happy and appreciate a good vent when we need to share.
I am feeling grateful to be a part of this world and that I can put myself out there in a way many of you may have never known me by. I am most grateful that now, eventually my children will now a little better the "real" me as I truly evolve and not just conform. so thank you for all taking part in the inspiration. so many of the things I want to become, I am realizing, already existed within me. I would never have noticed if I didn't read your words and feel them resonate within me on so many occasions. I do know I am amazing in many significant ways, ways that I had forgotten until lately. being connected in this crazy distant way has helped me re awake in a way. I hadn't realized I needed all of you, but I am so glad I found you.
so I Thank You all - those who read my blog and those who don't - for unlocking something new in me and helping me notice I am more than just the sum of the obvious parts.